Sunday, July 4, 2010
alrights. im just gonna write some things down.
i never felt this weak in my life. well, maybe i do. we can never take life for granted can we? i used to be that strong girl who believed that things would be alright even if things would hurt me so badly. but i was wronged. i stumbled and fall so many times. this past few months. i don't know what has got to me. but i seem to lose the strength and courage i used to have in me.
it is tiring for me. cos i never seem to like what im going through now. i fall to pieces. and the thought of it crushed me and i will be that little girl who easily cry when she got lost sight of her mum. im not like that. im the type who hide my feelings, let alone my tears from falling in front of people. i now admit, im a weak girl. i need to let out my feelings so that people know. im not the happy, cheerful type. im the type who will try, but after a few tries. i dont think i will continue. thats just me.
was it my fault to flare up? i really had had a bad day. i try dealing with it. you should have seen it. but to you i was just childish enough to walked off. but i tried for the whole day... and just for that moment, i knew i lost it. but you didn't see it. but instead you asked me to continue dealing with it. you say you will give me the support. but where was it? i got scolded instead.
then again, i asked myself. who am i falling in love with? cos you say i will know the real you soon. so, who exactly are you all this while? i felt that you are faking it. i felt you are lying to me. i cried enough in this relationship, more than enough. to think its just a short period of time.
12:52 AM
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